Dear Marg, I can't believe your gone. To me it is not real. I wasn't there when u were ill. I didn't know what was happening because I had not been on face book in over 4 yrs..Then I get a call that u had passed. It couldn't be true. I still don't feel that it is true. My heart is broken. You & I had been best friends since we were 5 yrs old. We had the best childhood,growing up on the street. I remember when U called me to tell me that "lil' Kenny" had passed. One of the worst calls I have ever received,until I got the phone call from 1 of my friends saying that you had passed. Worst phone call since u had called me about Kenny. I was able to see Lil'Kenny @ the funeral home,so it made sadly real to me. I wasn't able to go see u. I wasn't able to visit u in the hospital,like my mom & I did when we went to see your mom.I had no idea that u were so ill,or I would have been there. I had always felt for the past decade that u did not like me. I still don't know why? I remember when we were lil',we would make "perfume" out of the flowers, we would fry eggs on the cement on hot days, have a sleepover in your mom's old work van, I remember the time we found white paint in my parents garage & we painted my parent's grass! We got in so much trouble, I remember we were both crying cuz we thought we would never see each other again.All the fun times in "The field", sneaking into the fort that all the boy's in the neighbor hood had built. Fun times when u would go camping with my family. I think we grew up @ " Spanaway speedway" & the bowling alley,where every Wed.,our mom's were on the same league for yrs.! I have so many wonderful memories of us. I have been looking @ pics of us growing up. This just doesn't seem real @ all.(In my heart & mind u r fine,u didn't get sick.) I just don't believe it. I don't know if I ever will.
I know in Heaven u r w/ your mom,lil' Kane,your dog "Zach" & U finally got 2 meet your brother "lee". I am so sorry I was not there 4 u. Please,please 4-give me. As I'm writing this,it still doesn't seem real,@ all. U will always will be my very 1st BF. I love you Marg,I will c u soon. You r always in my heart & prayer's. Love, Big Stac xoxo
