My dear brother, Gary.
I will forever mourn you not being here with me and our family.
I am having a very hard time accepting that you died at your own hands. I trusted you when you promised me that you would not hurt yourself. I feel guilt that I somehow should have done more to stop you. I must and will eventually let that guilt go.
Thanks for being such a caring and loving brother. Someone who I could always count on and who consistently put other’s needs before your own. I learned a lot for from you. I am a better man because of you.
I know how deeply you were hurting and absolutely understand that your depression anxiety and fear removed your ability to uphold the integrity that guided you throughout your life. Your mind was compromised to the point that the decision to shoot yourself was no longer yours. Gary did not let me down. I forgive you.
Now I must focus on the many gifts in your life and how much time we were lucky enough to get. You sure had lots of fun. You impacted so many with your kindness and compassion. You will be missed far more than you ever realized.
I love you. I miss you. I will always remember you.
Rest in peace my dear brother.
Chuck AKA Charlie to brother Gary.