On Monday, August 12th, my beloved husband, Pat Carnahan, died in the hospital. He had been admitted the day before with sepsis, respiratory issues and some mental confusion. While in the emergency room, he suffered 2 cardiac arrests and was revived. He always told me to do everything possible because he wanted to live. We asked the doctors to try everything and they really did, but warned us it was against the odds that he would make it. After a day of every antibiotic, dialysis, fluids and one on one care, he had a final cardiac arrest and died. Cisco was with me when he passed away and began right then to take over Pat’s role as our rock. Our family arrived quickly and we spent time with Pat before leaving him for the last time.
All the prayers and good wishes from family and friends sustained us during our 30 hour vigil. But as much as we prayed for him to stay with us, God chose to bring him Home and give him rest from his physical suffering. Pat had diabetes for over 20 years, kidney failure and dialysis for 7 years and liver failure and heart disease for the past year. He wanted to continue to work full-time and tried to participate as much as possible in our busy family life. But he was growing weaker little by little and usually rested for many hours on the weekends. He still wanted to do everything for us, but was frustrated by his lack of stamina.
Pat was truly my little family’s savior when we married in 1993. We had been suffering before he came to us and just brought us into the light. He taught Cisco and Carlos how to be good, strong, loving husbands and fathers by living it every day. He taught Tessa that she was lovable and precious and helped her attain her heart’s desires. But most of all, he loved me with all my faults and craziness and 3 children hanging around. Pat helped me learn to trust again by giving me his whole heart. He told me he loved me every morning and every night. Our last words were, “I love you.” And we loved him so much. He was our center and our rock, supporting us when we had troubles and praising us when we did well.