Amalie
Your absence is as hard now, 12 years later, as it was when you first left us. I miss you more than you could ever know. You have had several grandsons brought into our family since you left, including one with Tiffany, my two little boys, and most recently Jeff's little one. Every one of them should have been able to know you, and I know you would have loved them with all your heart, as you loved your first two grandchildren. You've left a hole in my heart that can never be filled. It took me some time to make my peace with that, but it's there, aching, regardless. In spite of that hole, I can still feel you with me. All of our lives have changed so much since you've been gone, but you will forever be a part of them, and both of my boys will know everything I have to share about you. My oldest, who carries your name as a part of his, asks about you from time to time, and even at his young age of 4, feels your absence and grieves it. He would have loved you so much, especially with as goofy and precocious as he is. I hope you know how much you are missed, and how much you mean to all of us. Everyone I tell about you express how much they wish they could have known you, including my husband and father in law. My husband even wears your old wedding ring with great pride. He's expressed several times how much he loves the scuffs it bears from your time wearing it.
I miss you dad, so much. My heart hurts for you. I don't think it'll ever stop, but I'll continue to share your memory with everyone I know. They all deserve to know who you are, and you deserve a place in all their hearts.
